Currents of the Spirit

The yogis call this one unified essence Shiva. The force of creation within this absolute is the Divine Feminine

I am beginning to weave together some of the many lines of thinking that have been creating forward movement in my life. Comprehension along the way requires deliberate effort, and while we may understand how a particular device operates, or how a mathematical formula represents a physical law, comprehension of a creative process or a complex idea like consciousness, while attempting to unravel how its many facets come together in a conscious, creative result, and how the many elements of that human experience of consciousness come together, requires an even more deliberate and persistent effort.

We may feel at some point that we have apprehended some fundamental grasp of these elements, but not have any clear idea of how to express them. Comprehension does not, in every case, lend itself to an articulation of what has been comprehended. It is an essential element of the creative process to work out these details, and then to share with the world-at-large in a way that can lead others to comprehend as well.

The intuitions of forward movement in my life are of some concern for me presently. There is a fair amount of mental and emotional confusion accompanying my life of late, and it feels entirely possible that movement, in the form of “currents of the spirit,” underneath the surface of my phenomenal existence, is influencing awareness.

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The words flow out of me at times, and yet, often fall short of the actual feelings. The urgency of the feelings can be overwhelming, often containing great power within me. There are no set parameters within which I can predictably operate, nor can I easily determine always the breadth of my responses to the intuitive nature of the feelings. As is often the case, these feelings seem right in my heart and mind, but do not in every case make sense to me in the context of my daily life. The disparity between what is taking place within me, and the events of the world around me, is often puzzling.

While there is much that is yet to unravel for me, I am now beginning to sense more vividly the undercurrents of the spirit at work within me. It has not been, at every moment, an especially pleasant experience, but I am oddly reassured by this realization. The sense of a spirit within me is strong, and when there is movement within me, I quite often am fully aware that it is active at that moment. It has provided many illuminating and enriching experiences, but I have also had to endure some fairly intense emotional pain as a result of this awareness. My heightened sense of empathy toward others has brought me to make contact with and to be drawn toward certain individuals, who appear to me to be in need of some sort of compensatory movement in their lives, and interacting with them has resulted in both the achievement of balance and the rewards of success, as well as anxiety resulting from my inability to achieve momentum, or from interventions that had an adverse effect. Having a capacity for empathy does not come with a guarantee that I will always know what to do with such a profound connection to others.

Empathy IV by Helenka

I have struggled long and hard to engage certain other spirits with whom I feel this profound connection. My initial instincts have consistently led me to these individuals over the years, and in nearly every case, there is a clear response to my empathetic efforts, but occasionally no clear resolution of the circumstances. I generally have no trouble discerning how I feel, but sometimes become frustrated by my inability to engage these others. Several times, I have begun badly, or been misunderstood, or expressed myself poorly, and the results have been unsettling to say the least. Even in cases where I have had good effects on the lives of others, the progress I have made has come at a heavy price.

There is still much more for me to learn, but I feel strongly that I am on the path. Interactions with others have always been at the heart of my best and worst moments, but I feel fortunate to have gained in perspective over the years, and hope that I can begin again to move forward on the path of reconciliation.

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