These past few weeks have brought me face-to-face with some of the most challenging moments of my life. Facing life squarely is always a challenge one way or another, but confronting the consequences of my brother’s illness took me to levels of challenge I never imagined. Forced to consider and respond to circumstances beyond anything previously encountered, I found myself floating up to my chin in the uncharted waters of new experience.
There have been moments so strange and awful that I doubted my capacity to endure them, and others of such profound beauty and deep emotion that it seemed I might be equally undone as they unfolded. As I attempt to adjust now to the aftermath of the extremities in both directions, I find myself disoriented to the point where all my words seem to fall far short of the mark.
I know I must attempt to sort out the particulars eventually, and I feel strongly that there are probably a few gems among what feels like a great weight of stones in all of this, but at present, all I can ask for is your patience while I look through them.
…more to come….
John's Consciousness 