I Am With You Now


If you would like to listen to me recite this poem, click the following link:

With You Now

Musical background selection, “Snow and Light,” by Dustin O’Halloran on his album, “Lumiere.”

I Am With You Now

The light escapes from the window,
Across the room,
Lands on my face,
Gets under my eyelids,
And stirs me to wakefulness.

Slowly, the light becomes brighter;
My mind resists entry back into the room.
Very slowly, I open my eyes.
At first, there is only a fog–
A blur of light and shadow;

The trees outside my window are stirring in the wind,
Casting their tumultuous shadows across my face.
It takes several minutes for resistance to fail,
When once more, I am back in the world–
My consciousness returns to the world.

It feels like I’m floating.
I can hardly move.
The air is still, and yet,
The motes of dust rotate and swirl
In the beam of sunlight.

There is nothing but silence and presence.
It doesn’t take long,
My mind wanders, and when it wanders,
It wanders to you–
More precisely, to my memories of you.

And yet, my spirit somehow seems to hold
The presence of your spirit within it;
We are joined in the spirit.
I manage to slide up in the bed–
Prop myself up on my elbows;

And reverie sets in.
What joy there is in this reverie;
What intensity of spirit–
And abundant affection.
I fly to you, but there is no reply.

© March 2016 by JJHIII24

About jjhiii24
Way back in 1973, as a young man embarking on the journey of a lifetime, I experienced what Carl Jung described as “the eruption of unconscious contents,” which compelled me to seek the path I continue to pursue to this day. The path of discovery has led me through an astonishingly diverse range of explorations in philosophy, science, and religion, as well as the many compelling ideas in the literature and scriptures of the cultures of the world. There is, in my view, a compelling thread made up of components of each, that runs through the fabric of life. The nature and study of human consciousness has been a compelling subject for me for more than twenty years. I have spent a great deal of my time and energies trying to come to terms with my own very particular “inner experience” of life, and to somehow understand how the events and flow of my temporal life have directly been influenced by the workings within. Sharing what I have come to understand about my own “Inner Evolution,” has tasked my intellect and communications skills in a big way. I am only just beginning to feel confident enough in the results of my study and contemplation to express the many various aspects of what I have uncovered within myself. I am hopeful that my own subjective and personal experience of my own “human spirit” will resonate with others, and encourage them to explore their own.

2 Responses to I Am With You Now

  1. Anonymous says:

    It’s Easter Monday – for us another holiday! So I have time to discover the secret treasures of my in-box! And what should I find? Your latest blog post, a lovely poem with the promise of hearing your voice as you recite it! I enjoyed listening to your voice, deeper than I remember it but still pleasant!

    I am always amazed at your ability to be in the present and to linger there, savouring every moment. I think they call it mindfulness – a practice I need to give more attention to! Writing poetry must help a lot with the ‘lingering’ and the mindfulness as you stop to consciously and deliberately recall the thoughts and sensations of a particular time, and contemplate the beauty significance of a certain event or thought. I can see I need to find, or make time, to do this more often!


    • jjhiii24 says:


      Thanks so much for your visit and your kind words.

      It is helpful when writing poetry to practice mindfulness and to spend some time deliberately contemplating the details of the very moment in which we live. I tend to be alert to the present moment most of the time, but reflection and contemplation after the fact often brings out additional aspects of my experience, and memories are essential to the process so I tend also to memorize details as they occur, knowing they may be of value later on. I also spend a fair amount of time editing the structure and meter when it is needed and regularly attend to honing the expressions that erupt from within me as the spirit moves me.

      It has been quiet here lately and thankfully I have been able to spend time reading and writing. Easter this year has been a much needed weekend for solitude. I’m so pleased you thought to write to me and encourage you to do so as often as you are able and willing.

      Kind regards…John H.

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