All of the men with beards anticipating a new life…
Yesterday, when I posted the original blog, I had thought to include an edited version of a longer video, to accompany the post. It still feels raw when I think of how it seemed to happen slowly at first, but then rapidly throughout the day, and I wondered if the video was too personal, or maybe just right for the occasion…I floundered and waited and hit “post,” even though the video was removed.
Upon longer consideration, I decided to post the video, since it shows just how raw this event has been for me, and demonstrates how much I want others to know that it is hard, but it is also possible, for us to find solace and to find a way to continue, without judgment and without regret.
Please remember that I am expressing my heartfelt feelings at a vulnerable time along my path and be kind in your response.
All best wishes to all my visitors…John H.
John's Consciousness 
Sorry for your loss, John.
Thank you, Debra. It has been a difficult time for us all, but we still have the light he left behind.
I am sorry for your loss John, we all know just what it feels like. And I think you were right to post the video. I have been through the loss of my father in law recently – he was very dear to me. And my mother in law has not long to go. So many wonderful memories but the gap is hard to fill.
All best wishes
Anthony
Thank you so much, Anthony. We do well when we consider more what we have gained by a loved one’s presence than by lamenting what we will miss in their absence, but the gap being hard to fill can overwhelm us at times.
It felt a bit odd when I heard myself in the video describing the situation in a celebratory way, but after thinking it through, it seemed like that approach matched what he would have wanted it to be.
The arrival of a new life occurring so soon after the departure of another is a balancing act of great importance for our family, and I hope to find a way to express an appreciation of that moment shortly.
Thanks again for your thoughtful comment…John H.